Thursday, November 08, 2007
watching a particular video always leaves me in tears.i've watched it 4 times,and each time i watch it,new things are being impressed upon my heart,new perspectives formed.and it all brings me back to the person that we all are.and it's heartening to know that God remains loving,despite the times we turn our backs on him,the times we fall into the arms of the other.the video's amazing.i have no idea where it was shot.it's brilliant!it just makes you realize.realize things,realize ur thoughts,ur emotions,and the workings of ur soul.
for the times i feel so used,so taken advantage of, i thank You Lord for those who so willingly make sacrifices just to see me through them, for those who sit down with me and listen.ve been going thru some really bad times.but looking at it in another perspective,it's all about connecting the dots,and surrendering to His plan.i can't say i'm overjoyed having to go thru all these.ughh.the times when your expectations are way up there,something comes along and shatters tt weak foundation your expectations are built upon.it's always something.anyhow, it's over and i guess wearing a mask is always good.i used to think it was being fake.heyy all in the name of self-defence man.
i'm seeing stars like satellites (:
i'll worship You, my God; 8:28 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
yoohoo!i just realised!i made it to the 100th post.heh after a very long while.
all's been good :) aft the much needed,in fact,a far too generous,3 month break,i'm back in sch.oweek was so much fun,the freshies and the time spent with the councillors.i'm gg to sound like i work for samsung,but seriously,it's all about creating memories tog.
i'm off to lime flea mkt again tmr to get rid of some very irritating clothes,and hopefully i will not be spending more than i earn this time round.and i hope ppl wldn't bargain so aggressively so i get to make some $.
just throwing out random stuff to type.i haven't read blogs in ages!well i do read one,it's the fashion police's blog.it's kind of funny to see celebs dressed in rags and really ill-fitting clothes.ohh!hairspray!felt there wasn't a balance between the whole musical drama thing and the storyline.it got a little on my nerves and i was kinda hoping for a commercial break.a pair of twins went up to dance during the last few scenes.it was so cute!oh they were about 4.so it was cute.can't imagine a pair of twins at erms,30 running down the aisle,dancing to 'me and baltimore'.shudders!
wellss,till i have another urge to type random stuff,toodles! :) be safe ppl
i'll worship You, my God; 9:16 AM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
kids can be so trying.it's not easy being a primary sch teacher.and i have no idea why they can talk so loudly.they're not even trying to shout.it's a miracle.
but the p1 and 2s are just so charming.i saw the most pretty/handsome pair of twins in my p2 class today.just like my timothy :) they're in sg now but i haven't had the time to visit.
i was on the verge of slapping this p4 boy.mann he's terrible!he thinks the world of himself,finds fault in everything and it's not like he has what it takes to act this way.i know i ought not to be so uptight over a kid,because he is a kid afterall.ugh he just takes the breath out of me.turns out his dad speaks this way too.interesting enough eh.
was grumbling and amy's reply was so simple.love them with the love of God.i've got to try to see them through His eyes and not my own.i can never,but i can pray and trust that He will show me them through His eyes.
ms ong has been really nice to me :)
oh the little things that make me pull through -
i'll worship You, my God; 8:27 AM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
many events behind my back now.it sort of leaves you deflated.
hope they had fun ytd.nv knew there was so much to do,so many things to forsee,and many more things to decide upon.and it's like you can't just make a hasty decision because you're not the only one bearing the consequences.and there's always the finances to think abt.but i enjoyed the whole process.i thank God for the wonderful comm.hahas 'you guys have the dream comm la!' and i believe so :) we were just talking abt the weeks leading to THE event on fri.i know everyone does tt.like a pre-event talk.all the 'i can't believe how far we've come since the 1st meeting','wow,it's finally here' and stuff like that.no matter how cliche it sounds,it's true.there were times when i really dreaded meetings.i wldn't know what we had to discuss,i wldn't know who's gg to turn up.a lot of uncertainty,a lot of 'what-ifs' and 'maybe we cld do it another week'.but it has been good.and i thank God for still blessing the event though we didn't centre out event on Him.it was just a mad rush of things to do,pub to attract ppl,reg to see to.maybe it's just me,but for the past weeks since reg started i find myself constantly worrying abt pub/reg during serv.if it's gg to turn out the way it shld,if we cld grab the table before alpha youth did.hahas.but it was all good
and now i'm just deflated -
the underground min sounds good to me.i think it's necessary.sth so simple to do,and yet so detrimental in some ways.i just need time -
so i'm off,and it'll prolly be another month before i'm back again to rant.hahas.
i'll worship You, my God; 7:33 AM
Friday, June 22, 2007
i'll worship You, my God; 9:29 AM
Friday, May 25, 2007
i gave up blogging since blogger didn't autosave my post the last time round.it's such a put off,to click on 'publish' and not see anything appear.
still jobless,still spending as if i own diamonds,still bumming around like the bum that i am.caught the zouk flea market last sun.the lighting was terrible,i cld hardly tell orange from purple.there was a lot of smoke and dogs.ya,dogs.as in real dogs(bark!).i wldn't want my dog to be sniffing in that amount of 2nd-hand smoke.i think it's a paris hilton thing.dogs make great accessories when their dressed oddly,and it's better yet if they're really small and don't move much.i mistook a small pomeranian for a pile of clothes and got quite a scare when tt 'pile of clothes' moved and sort of stared at me.managed a few good buys.sher bought super a lot.i'm just amazed.hahas.4 inched heels and what have you-s.and so i spent many days flinging my crisp notes at different shopowners.and now the good old mongolian wallet's as thin as can be.wootss.
contract signing was quite an eye opener.i wonder if my name card's still at the office.it was a tad odd but nevertheless an experience.
spent some time pracking.heh.funn!triton rocks.its got many different sounds and effects.and frm then there have been many opportunities to play and i thank God for that!stopped twinkling on the ivories for close to a year.pracs are always funn,except i'm always alone at the side!it's a terrible set-up,but apparently it's supposed to do the sound good.my eyes were opened to the passion that they have for music,in creating an all-round worship experience.and i'm so amazed at technology.sort of makes me feel a bit cheated for all the money spent on CDs.hahas.whenever i think of edited sounds i think of britney spears.like i can just imagine how edited her CD is!every out-of-pitch note,lip smacking,wrong word sung -- edited!
there's bananarama,gdop,and the jy-yf event.and hopefully a job.hehh.went for an interview today.it's such a waste of my time!and ya,i didn't get the job in the end.it's for a 2day private fashion show.
i always lose my train of thoughts after a while.so long,farewell!
i'll worship You, my God; 6:32 AM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
i'll worship You, my God; 7:30 AM