Thursday, August 03, 2006
yeayss.just bidded and i felt really pro.hohoho.i'm so glad for zhishaohaiyouni,so glad for the few friends i've known,glad that we decided on abt the same stuff.wonder if my bids will be successful.
pardon me.
it's a whole new experience.ppl frm all over,the east,the north,and i still think the west is the best.sounds terribly primary school i know.but there is a difference between the west and the east ppl.seriously.maybe it's the air,or the water supplies.
ppl that i wish i nv see again,tones i wish they'd nv use on me,looks that are cast my way.i pray tt i will be strong enough to stay to my identity in Christ,to be very sure of what i am.the networking word's been seriously overused.so much for fun,so much for getting acquainted.
i'm feeling super insecure and i really hate it.i hate feeling uncertain,feeling alone,helpless and wishing i'd disappear.it's sth i struggle with,then and now.ughss.it just irks me when things aren't all strawberry sundaes and smooth.
grp's new.a lot more ppl,hope it'll be a lot more funn.but some impressions are fixed.so eekss to that,and i hope it'll disappear.
at a stage where i'm really uncertain of everything,feeling myself wanting to escape real bad.i shld seriously consider being a recluse,pity it doesn't look nice on my CV eh.i'd miss days i wake up at 12plus,laze around,bang a little on the ivories,slowly take my brunch,and curl up on the settee with a good read.
hope i am what i was made to be.
hear these frm a lost and tired soul
i'll worship You, my God; 9:05 AM