Friday, April 01, 2005
dear God,it's me estherss.why do ppl feel sad.why can't we be happy everyday.and if we can't why do i try to be happy and try to make ppl be happy every single day.i hope everyone lead happy lives.why is it that we can't always be that happy all the time.wells.i guess when things don't go the way we expect it to be we feel disappointed.sadness sets in.i don't like being sad.so i'll try to be happy.but i nv realised that by trying to be happy i'm not actually helping much.eloquence,courage.seems so out of place.i guess they left.the beginining and the end.it's like telling a child a story.i won't stop believing that the world is a happy place,that ppl have a lot of happy potential in them.i like it when we laugh.we bypass all reason and logic.say hohohoho.
i really don't treat u as one.cos i know it feels terrible to be treated like tt.i was once thought of in the same way.it's horrible.the way ppl take u for granted,treat u more like some cartoon character that tickles their funny bones than for who you really are.i don't like it.and i doubt anyone likes it at all.
we all have 5senses.it's time i used my skin.tooters do not use their skins much.
i need to come out frm tt hole.ah wells.the journey will be long.i need to climb over small mountains swim across murky ponds.i hope i see ur beauutiful red/lime green light tooss.it's dim frm where i am now,but i know i'll see it glowing againss.
i miss old traditional humjipengss.i don't like new flavour because nth's as good as the good old traditional one.
hello new hair do.hello to horrible Os.hello to no-s.hello to explanations.
tatas confusion.tatas television.tatas doing what i want.
i splurged.not good.
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i'll worship You, my God; 5:02 AM